...Okay. [This time, the single word is less skeptical, more a cautious hope. It doesn't bring him real reassurance or comfort to hear, anymore than it brings real annoyance or suspicion, but it's the answer he preferred to hear. The one he can more easily build from. Sans would support his decision, whatever it might be.
He takes his time to think. Putting the sensing test off until morning had given him time to do some high priority backups, and he doesn't regret that decision. He should disengage from monitoring the analysis of metadata, disconnect from his phone and network access altogether - no sense sending weird network messages while under the influence of whatever Sans might do.
After all, it doesn't take any real thinking about. He had already been searching for an answer and solution. Tracking the new port's functions had partly been for the satisfaction of knowing his body and his capabilities, but partly a search for what was changing, and how, and why. His emotions had gone numb around when the antlers formed, and the ports had grown from those spots, and his first point of suspicion had been that it was finally too much robotics, or that something about the ports themselves were the culprits. He hasn't finished carving through to actually access the second one, but the findings would likely be the same... Especially if Sans's finding is correct, and most of his emotions are tied up in these perfect memories.
...He wonders whether they're still influencing him, if in understated ways. If his inclination to wait is shaped by the curious probing analysis he'd felt during the eclipse and beyond, if he's testing Sans's willingness to do nothing by waiting. If his willingness to carve into his skull has anything to do with the irreverence for life he felt, while influenced by Hannibal's personality. There's benefits to being unemotional, but is he, actually? And what might he do while Sans influences him...?]
...Hey. You said, you wouldn't use something negative. What are you thinking of trying...?
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He takes his time to think. Putting the sensing test off until morning had given him time to do some high priority backups, and he doesn't regret that decision. He should disengage from monitoring the analysis of metadata, disconnect from his phone and network access altogether - no sense sending weird network messages while under the influence of whatever Sans might do.
After all, it doesn't take any real thinking about. He had already been searching for an answer and solution. Tracking the new port's functions had partly been for the satisfaction of knowing his body and his capabilities, but partly a search for what was changing, and how, and why. His emotions had gone numb around when the antlers formed, and the ports had grown from those spots, and his first point of suspicion had been that it was finally too much robotics, or that something about the ports themselves were the culprits. He hasn't finished carving through to actually access the second one, but the findings would likely be the same... Especially if Sans's finding is correct, and most of his emotions are tied up in these perfect memories.
...He wonders whether they're still influencing him, if in understated ways. If his inclination to wait is shaped by the curious probing analysis he'd felt during the eclipse and beyond, if he's testing Sans's willingness to do nothing by waiting. If his willingness to carve into his skull has anything to do with the irreverence for life he felt, while influenced by Hannibal's personality. There's benefits to being unemotional, but is he, actually? And what might he do while Sans influences him...?]
...Hey. You said, you wouldn't use something negative. What are you thinking of trying...?